Welcome! Welcome! Welcome! It is time already for the Ultimate Blog Party 2008! Could I offer you a glass of ice tea or how about some homemade banana bread? I'm glad you've decided to drop in for a visit, I hope we can get to know each other better.
So let me get this party started with a random introduction of myself.
I am simply a woman who is trying to figure out this thing called life. My world is revolving around so many things that sometimes my sphere seems to be a little off kilter and I'm in the process of smoothing it all out. I have been married for over 5 years, and have experienced many of the ups and downs of this special union. Fortunately I said 'until death do us part' and we have trucked on and made it through all of the valleys and climbed many hills. I am very happily married, yet it has taken me quite a while to learn that 'picture perfect' rarely exists. If I could live on the set of "Leave it to Beaver" I would in a heartbeat.
However that is not the case. Fortunately though I am lucky enough to have a career that offers tons of flexibility. I am a labor & delivery nurse and have been able to find a position in which I work weekend nights, leaving me the entire week to spend with my Baby Girl. I also teach prenatal and breastfeeding classes and enjoy that immensely. I'm hoping to expand my knowledge someday and return to school and get my Master's degree to teach, if the cards play out.
Despite my career, I would love to be the wife and mother who stays home each day cleaning and cooking and making life, for those I hold dearest in my heart, perfect. I envision our life where things did not get in the way of simple things, where sitting down in the evening to talk about our day was never interrupted by telemarketers or the latest episode of "American Idol". The amusing part of it all is that I live in a reality where I can't keep dirty dishes from piling up in my sink and the laundry pile has overtaken our entire bedroom. Who said it was supposed to be a "love nest" anyways, it's more of a pig pen around here. And should I mention that I rarely cook. In the five and a half years I have been married to my Prince Charming I could probably count a dozen meals I have actually prepared. I know it's not quite a fairytale, is it?
My sweet, sweet Baby Girl is the light of my life and the drive behind my need to get this grown-up thing figured out. I am a mom now after all, it's time to behave as such. My hopes for her are that she will grow up and that her memories will be full of happiness. I know that my strive for perfection in all reality does not equal happiness on her part, but it does on mine. Perhaps it is my fear that I do not want her to see how little I have things together. Just perhaps.
Funny how hindsight truly is 20/20 and that looking back into my own childhood my memories are full of the things I am striving to create for my own "mini me". Okay, okay, she really is her daddy's "mini me" but this is MY blog and I'll call her what I wish. I remember the traditions, the time together as a family, the way my mother's house was run. Not to say that there were never any bad times, just like every home there were, but I'm more in tuned to the good now that I'm a mother myself.
There are a million things I wish I could get right and that I could instill into my little girl. My hopes for her are that she will grow up to be a child of God, that she will someday be a good wife to a man who doesn't deserve her giving nature, and that she becomes a mother who exemplifies perfection to her own children. Maybe if I can learn to live the life I hope for her, she will not have to strive so hard to do the same one day.
This blog is a tool. I am here to develop my inner self, to examine who I am and what I hope to become.
Now Let's PARTY!!!!!
There are so many cool prizes to be won at this year’s Ultimate Blog Party, but my top three picks would definitely have to be:
The custom blog design by Summer
The story package by Cherish Bound
The Boca Beth Biligual Beginner Set by Boca Beth
And if my top three picks are already chosen, I’d love any of the following (no order of preference): 11, 24, 29, 37, 56 or cash is always a blessing!